Mummy and Daddy,
What to say....what to say :D I just want to tell you about a little experience I had last night. Poor Sister Sorensen felt like death...she had her first Mission Body Breakdown! Yay....fret not...we documented the experience. So there I was downstairs, filling out all this paper work, and I said to myself, "Self, you know what I want to do at this moment in time....I'm going to say a prayer." Now this may seem like a silly thing. You may be saying to yourself, "What are you talking about? You pray about twenty times a day!" This is true; however, we have so many time constraints (I have 30 seconds to pray to be ontime for Personal Study) ,I'm always so beat/ sleeping (Heavenly Father, Thank you for my day today I really liked eating Krave this morning...I wonder how they get that delicious chocolate into those tiny cereal squares....I should really purchase more milk tomorrow....oh wait......Sorry Heavenly Father I was thinking about Krave agian. I get distracted...forgive me), etc etc...I feel like It's been a while since I've had a really meaningful conversation with Him. Anyways, there I was kneeling on our carpet...little stones and bread crumbs drilling into my knees....and I just talked outloud to Him. I told him everything....The beautiful part of it.....I felt Him there. It's like when you have your eyes closed and you can still sense that someone is in the room with you....I felt Him there...really listening to me. It meant a lot to me.BAM! MIRACLE! NEXT!
This week has been interesting. We've met some right crazies(We met this old lady that laughed...ooohhhooo hoo hoo hoo hoo every five seconds and said, "Sometimes my hearing aid lets me down, but I don't find out til it happens!" ooohh hooo hooo hoo. I literally could not breathe!!!!! ahahahahhaha I love old people!), picked up loads of trash, and spent a lot of time teaching and helping Kenneth learn.....but I also hit my year mark....wow....one year......goes by fast. I feel like I've changed quite a bit, but at the same time....I still feel like I don't know anything ahahhaha which is probably true, but I do have such a greater appreciation for my Heavenly Father and my Savior Jesus Christ. I'm glad they give us hard things to deal with....yeah...it's hard, but that's the only way we'll get better. I hear people tell me all the time, "If there were a God, all these bad things wouldn't happen in the world. We'd be happy all the time, and life would be good." I grow weary of this :D People people people...how in the world are you gonna know happy if you don't know what sad is? How are you going to know what's good if you have never experienced bad. I'm so grateful that Heavenly Father loves me enough to give me opportunities to be a better version of ourselves. Sister Sorensen and I chant this little quote every day before we head out to get "pumped,"
"I am a part of the fellowship of the unashamed! The dye has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I will not look back, let up, slow down, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure. I am finished and done with low living, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tamed visions, worldly talk, cheap giving, and dwarfed goals! I no longer need to preeminence, position, promotion, plaudit, or popularity. I don't have to be right, first, recognized, praised, regarded or rewarded. I now walk by faith, lean on His presence, walk with patience, am uplifted by prayer and labor with power...... It goes on from there, but we have yet to memorize that :D
I love it out here! Thank you so much for letting me be here! I will never be able to express in words how much it means to me!
I love you all!
Have the best day of your lives!
Love always and forever,
Your Sister Stephanie White